i write this with the sounds of howling fill up my home. T loves to howl with Chandi. after finishing up the three to five minute rendition, he exclaims, "good girl! good girl!" ahh, the things we teach our pup.
i've written so many blog posts in my head during my hiatus. i wrote about truth, house hunting, gossip, laughter in pain, and smelly socks. i wrote about moving, transitions, and impermanence. i wrote about love, heart break, and attaining our goals. through all of this "writing," i never wrote. as i sat down at a table over a teaism, with a collection of books and a new notebook, i read "the four agreements." i read about how our fears pause us from doing things that bring us joy. "am i good enough?" or "who is reading this and what do they think?" are thoughts that have crossed my mind. and surprisingly to me, they stalled me.
i stopped writing due to fear and not creating space for my happiness. i can't say that i overcame my fears, but i am slowly gearing back up to making my joy the number one priority instead of prioritizing other things.
okay--nuff about not writing, right?
i've written so many blog posts in my head during my hiatus. i wrote about truth, house hunting, gossip, laughter in pain, and smelly socks. i wrote about moving, transitions, and impermanence. i wrote about love, heart break, and attaining our goals. through all of this "writing," i never wrote. as i sat down at a table over a teaism, with a collection of books and a new notebook, i read "the four agreements." i read about how our fears pause us from doing things that bring us joy. "am i good enough?" or "who is reading this and what do they think?" are thoughts that have crossed my mind. and surprisingly to me, they stalled me.
i stopped writing due to fear and not creating space for my happiness. i can't say that i overcame my fears, but i am slowly gearing back up to making my joy the number one priority instead of prioritizing other things.
okay--nuff about not writing, right?
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, at 11:00 PM
Welcome back! :)
this morning i read your facebook update as i was heading to work, and it sounded so peaceful and happy, the things you were doing for the day. it made me smile so much. and just now, at the end of my workday, i wondered to myself, i wonder if chai would have written about her day on here, too?
and i click over, and here you are, back again! =)
so, so happy to see you here again. i've been checking in from time to time!
i, too, have mentally written so many blog posts that didn't really get written. =/
here's to more writing, from the both of us!
and i click over, and here you are, back again! =)
so, so happy to see you here again. i've been checking in from time to time!
i, too, have mentally written so many blog posts that didn't really get written. =/
here's to more writing, from the both of us!
